11/29/2008 6:45 pm - Interesting... this number I don't understnad.. but one way or
another it all adds up to the same things... as the first song that came up for me on the
music was The Doors - Light My Fire. :}
Dear M -
At this point, I'm just going to declare that, without any tangible evidence, that
we've been carrying an Aesopian discussion that was highhly misundersood on both ends in
many ways jsut as timelines change.
Im also going to say I'm going to be direct as possible, I'm going to be very honest
about some things that were generated in this particular "Dialectical Psyop"..
and in this case, I'll use that term loosely and wait until I get to Disneyland to know
the truth and accept whatever it is, even if only because I have a great number of options
available to me by heading South... all that I know will work one way or another. It just
I'm also going to declare the acknowledgement of the ability to use hypnosis and
psychotronics, and directed energy weapons in the world at large, and that they are being
used against American Citizens on American Soil by the Representatives of the Government
in many capacities of public trust, a trust that has been violated. And, that one of
the major abilities of the New Class of Weapons is to khgajks;jkzgjhgdhgdgjh
I am also going to be frank about the effects its had on me, as well as my presumption
of its effects on you and likely people you know and love, as well as some kind of
evidence of the deliberate and intentional defiance and disruption of the design of God
that included our meeting. It's one of those things I just know, much like Mariah Carey
always knew she would be a musician, a superstar. So I'll share some things that in my
heart and osul, hod as things I know to be true somee, unknown reason I believe in acts of
love and faith in God.
And, in the face of believing, whether it's true or because of psyops, that I
have no secrets, adn in a way, and am glad to have the privilege to serve God by providing
an example of the kinds of evil and the extent to which the Biblical
"evil-doers" have gone to overthrow the Kingdom of God, the ends justifies the
means mentality that has plagued humanity since the beginning of time, that will now end,
as He promised... just as I feel blessed in this mont to know that He is speaking
through me at this moment.
And this is going to be a very personal letter - since I have no secrets, really -
because I really want it to be clear what my intentions, my commitments and expectations
are of you and me, for that matter... and I'm not going toh hold back, because whatever
anyone thinks of this, what matters most in what hapens nex tin my mind and instruction is
that we have some kind of destiny tobe partners in His work at this time.
One of those things I just know.
And even if it somehow started off badly, God has a way of making it turn out well, as
He promised in the Bible. So I want to talk about that, and what the psychotronics
hypnosis generated, nd the truth that allowed that and the truth of what allowed the
psychotonic effect of amplifying my thoughts and emotions beyond what they actually are,
that of a 53 year old man with an optimistic yet mature outlook of a personal future -
knowing that any soldier coming home has to deal with issues of isolation, alienatin,
witnessing atrocity, feeling abandoned and harmed even if not physically harmed
It's unavoidable, and like any soldier, like those in Iraq and Afghanistan, and
soldiers and victims all over the world, I'm vulnerable, like anyu human I need and
desire love, and I know I've been affected in unimageinable ways that have caused me to
represent myself in ways as a man prepared for a war of hearts and minds on behalf of God
for whatever reason, and I expected there to be a toll. And there was and is one.
And I'm so aware that so many other people are suffering in so many similar ways.And
one wa involving psyops in one way wor another that caused me to feel a very deep and
profound sense of love for you that I won't deny or claim, because I know what amplieifed
what I actually feel. Just as aI knowa good dialectic would be to have the ability
to provide plausible deniability to prove I'm an obsesed guy convicting himself of
harassing a tv minister because she was talking to him through the tv. Sorta works for me,
I'm used to it, ad I don't have any more room on the tivo to waste time gathering evidence
that distracts me from exposing the "individuals' who need to be exposed. :}
It's important to me to be sure you understand clearly what I know by faith in God,
what I know was generated, and that I accept whatever occurs as the result of my own
actions. Furhter, that what's below is actually a useful "diatribe" that I wrote
while knowingly being affected by psychotronics, adn I allowed it, fully knowing that per
the typcial dialectic paradigm, I would be reversing a great number of things instead,
also knowing that it serves as the kind of thinking, over and over util I reach what I
consider to be a sound and rational decision based on fact and logic and faith in God.
I had a wonderful day today. Very intense, The psyops guys very consturctively and
usefully putting me through a cool inquiry about all sorts of things encompassing the
universe, and I feel so blessed. About me, about you, as individuals mostly, as servants
too. The perfect.Match in His work. It's one of those things I jjust know is true. I claim
it. Just as I know that even if we never met face to face in this world at this time, you
are at my right hand in His work at this time as was intended by Him.
I actually know you know what I'm talking about. Just as me and Beaver and Forrest and
the Sarge played by Gary Sinise in Forrest Gump sor tof talked for about 12 hours today..
and we decided that I was sititng hear screaming for someone to rescue me, the reverse
damsel in distress story, except going on in both ends, which I actually just realized,
and I kept calling for minsters to have the courage to step forward but I was so used to
being taunted by the media and otehr people and the government officials themselves, that
I they successfully prevented me from realizing that...
I want ot honor you for this... that you answered the call and I couldn't accept it out
of fear for myself in order to be certain be available and free to serve Him when it
was time do His most important work, no matte what. And previous and ongoing psyops
prevented us both - from personal concern and responsibility and commitment to His plan
allowed us both to be used agianst each other in emotional psyop operations, as well as
all sorts of coercion, including disruption of telephone and communications of all kinds,
likey economic coercion and defamation by whatever means...
That you truly are courageous no matter how anything began, out of your commitment to
God, I actually know that, like so many other people the Bible predicted as personal
delusion,s meaning that we would all be fooled in one way or another, not being liars or
apostates or criminals or bad people, believe we were doing something ok wven though
there might have been somehting nagging us, telling us it didn't quite sit well.
Just as I know that if there is anyon ein this world that can provide witness, by no
accident and by the design and plaan and will of God, to who I am in this world.
I call you Miss America because I actually believ eyour incredible description o fthe
experiences you had and the commitment youa ccepted to the vision of His work... fully
knowing that some of the biter pills I had to delvier would be devastating to people, hard
to accept, but that you must have at some point actually checked things out, and
unfortunately came to the same undeniability conclusions I cam to on certain things, at
least to cause reasonable suspicon.
So I call you Miss Americ abecause your say you were commisioned to "Save
AMerica" I bleive you siad, and I believed you. And I want you to know that I
commissiion you to tha if you want it. And I say that because I can, and because I want to
empower in wht you believ eis the fulfillment of your purpose in His Kingdom, which you
did and are doing by reestablishing the foundations of the word and messages of God
throughout His Kingdom whcih is in grew at part going to be a credit to your incredibly
brilliant and loving service to Him.
And I so respect you for that. And I so respect so much of wht you've generated which
is very much proof to me that you ar indeed a prophet, even if only to me, though I
though tha's not true because f the very minimal research I did on your backgroind
long after I decided you were the perosn I was looking for a sa person to my partener and
right hand in His work, empowering each otehr with our seaparte and anointed gifts as my
right hand in the full establisment and adminsistration of His Kingdom. I just knew it.
And instead I once again ramblr on in the night feeling the necessity to bear my sould to
you in public because it's just that important, and somehow because God told me to so I
What I believe is our share love for God, His vision and undertsanding of His vision
and ability to actually cause it is the reason for my joy in - what I jokingly call my
discovery of you and your work - never hearing of you and maybe hearing of your late
husband once while flipping channels... and all of that is what you might call my
true professional interest in you as I became so exhuberent when I first listened to you
program on Ion TV... maybe even being broadcast as a piggyback, becasue maybe for the
first time in my life I encountered someone who seemed to me to be the possibility of
someone who actually understood His vision and experienced it in a natural expresison of
being in life that finally manifested itself per God's plan and timing, profoundly per
God's plan, as a leader and to me precisely provided at the very moment my inquiry and
process of becoming actually required it, to affirm to me though an aobjective
source, that what I was wirting and witnessing and blieving was not the words of an
apostae, who I refuse to be, though I may interpret things that I love to correct, that
your knowledge and being and spirit so complements mine in relation to what I know
my future wrk to be in service to God and His wonderful plan and promise.
I just knew it.
An dwhat was used against us both in one way or another was my profound respect and and
admiration for women in so many ways for so many reson that I so casually describe a
love... in most ways, thes same as I say about men... just because i do, for now.
And I knew the dialectic all too well adn I went with it, the "love engrams"
I've described before, because I also saw the psossibilit yof more than the special
professional interest I have in you, becasue to giht it would cause me to be unable to
concentrate on the messages of the words you spoke, and it was very nurturing an
felt great and I knew it wasn' treal even though the basic feelings of affection,
and soemthing a little more special in my respect for you and shred vision,
11/28/2008 -11:32 pm
A hard day. I sure wish I knew when these sessions of yours were recorded... what I get
here, unless you're wearing wigs, are not contiguous, and the more it goes on, are less
specific to what I am currently writing, but most assuredly reflect some things that step
away from the norms of thinking of spiritual walks of faith... that I've been writing
about since 2002... and while your delivery of things is more collegial, although being
"the angel" in Revelations as I say you are, having been called to the supper...
the meal, breaking of bread, The Word, of supplication to those called and chosen to lead,
regardless of wha moved you to your spoken commitment, in white garments, as in cleansed
and pure of heart and soul, guileless in the grace of God.... I would, of course, prefer
blue, though Isee the difference in your apparel as one of those ambiguous clues that may
mean that the other color was at the laundry...
I get a lot out of what you teach. I would like I provide something to others, but I
don't know, though I haven't heard anyone speaking in the things and ways that I
do... whichi isn't saying much unfortunately because my exposure is so limited..
I suppose you could say that my writing in sequestration does provide proof of the
validity of what I write and try to teach, if it is valid, and I know it is, whether
accepted or not.. I hear you speak of people getting value should give to that...
I've given everything I haeve to give as I go, willing to give even more that would be of
monetary value but I'm not into carrots and sticks... coercion, bribery and the like... I
really believe in choice. That is one of the things from the forum that I agreed with,
even though they did not honor it and I was castigated and rejected for honoring it
because it did not provide them the monetary rewards they were actually seeking f from
those foolish enough to submit to their domination out of a need for approval, which they
never did receive from me... in the forum I went to in Monterey with the 1968 Israeli War
soldiers - the Armageddon as I see it, I don't how to put it, but the leader,
who I believe he and his father were some of the best ones from the original inquiry for
WEA... who left after WEA.. the Eisens... he kept haing to sit me down adn tel me to be
quiet because I kept saying things,a and then people would share, and then I would share
and elevate the discussion 2 to 4 steps beyond his presentation... I liked him :} and got
a lot out of that.
I know little of Calvinism, but I still say that the rapture was a vision that was
misinterpreted... interpretations of visions are often a problem because people try
to interpret them as they receive them and thus taint the full message because they alter
the content with the context of their experiences instead of receiving them and
actually applying them to their world, like the American or Geneva Bibles... the latter
expaling a great deal to me in the example of Catherine of Sienna... and I have to say,
whether by request or otherwise, it appears to me I've been prompted, as the news media
has been used, to extract info from me to suit other people's purposes, and I am not at
all comfortable with that, and I'mjust not going to be used anymore because then it really
is still humanistics, and I know you're smart enough to understand what I said... taking
from, and not honoring and glorifying Him and Jesus or me. And it's not, for me about
honor and glory for me, but of service, but I am tired of being pushed around, and
manipulated... so often finding out that people have been attracted to me as
supposed friends because theywanted somehting from me, giving little in return, and then
diminishing me for not wanting to give to those who so willingly take but provide no
support for me... not so much financially, but spiritually and emotionally
like a friend would.. and I don't believe my expectations of people are too high in that
But I deserve my due and I deserve to survive in a reasonable healthy
manner, and in this world in this nation at this time, that means submitting to economic
extortion for the sole purpose of silencing me, or suffer poverty and what appears to be
acceptable harm from those who I would think would be the ones to sustain me as I give all
I have to give for their enrichment and enlightenment of the Word... I don't like
art to be about money and all, and I know it's a reality... but it's clear to me that,
despite my own choice long ago to divest of assets and live a minimalistic life -
not even close to poverty - for the simplicity of it as well as to present myself in a
clean, wholesome way, as well as to dissuade all the people who seemed to view me as a
source of wealth financially as well as spiritually, and yet the still came to me as if
they anticipated that I would have something monetarily down the road that they wanted a
piece of. I'm not cynical and jaded, it's just true. And I'm not wrong that every effort
and movement that I've made toward what most would consider success has been purposefully
thwarted by those .. the people I talk about who are those who call themselves Jews but
are not that you told people to run away from me about... as if in a exclamation of
fear... knowing alittle more but not much about some of your affiliations, the way
your sermons have been presented to me in a way that disorients me like all the other
psyops I've dealt with... whether you have anything to do with that or not... the
Kyra similarities and everything... and yet, it seem s that I am expected to just give up
even the comforts of a warm bed to serve others who offer nothing more... like I
said, I'd have come down for acouple days, but there isn't 3 weeks to waste if I am
to attempt to disrupt what's going on, and the time already spent seeking partnership.. by
the time anything happens it will be too late, and so many people will suffer, and then
the next position I have to falll back to both by knowledge and experience and prophecy
means all I can really do is fall back until extreme damage is done and then mop it ups
afterward somehow like some kind of here I have no desire to be. Never did.
And I'm not interested in being involved in being a rags to riches
story, because I would not be in rags at all if I had been so harmed... and all the time I
spend wiritng these thing sis pure distraction from the political things that I have to
believe you and most people won't believe until that same extreme damage has devastated
America. Let alone the world in the Devilish plan going on.
I can write and respond with all kinds of thing.s. I believe could coach
you in so many ways.. even musically... that would take you beyond your beliefs of your
own potential, as I believe you could ad to me in the same ways.
But I really have been left destitute,and I am not a begggar, not
out of pride, but integrity to the knowledge of my own skills and abilities that I know
could make the difference. THE difference. Right now. I don't knwo what more to say
about that except that apparently every other opinion is that I AM NOT worthy.. and I
reject it, feel betrayed and will not allow te Word and the Truth of our times to be
stolen by the anti-Christ. I believe even yuou may be being used for that purpose, and I
also have become aware that you have been greatly affected by psychotronics and now know
I am much like Marin Luther, although the foul mouth part is psychotronics
and I do not take responsibility for it.. it's Norseen's word insertion and it works and
to stop it while delving in thought requires losing the message of the thought to pay
cloeser attention to the development of words in context... like a competitive
improvisational oratory... that can't possibly be cohesive... and in the world I am in
now, in my "lonely room day after day..." with no peace or certainty of any
sort, feeling no responsibility for the circumstances I am surrounded by since I was not
listened to in the creation of the mess going on... but as usual, expected to bear the
brunt of the hostility caused by it, without the opportunity to express myself as a
human to anyone.. I do not need nor will I accept any additional hardship to serve those
who will simply take from me, without regard to my welfare and well-being, nor
return or reciprocate to me...
Your books, to me, are like the emulations used in the Carey movies to
psyop me.. where I originally saw them years after their releases, after I had begun to
write, I said i knowp people have dreams and visions which provide them the source for
what they create form it... and there it is again in your books... haven't read any of
them, but they sure do describe some things of the future accurately... whether by
natural causes or mutation by chemical and DNA changes... purposefully or as part of a
course of fecal waste that includes steroids and drugs and such... it's uncanny.
In the context of this time, in the context of my life and circumstances,
that I may be harmed with impunity, treating me as the happy fool who can be so easily
used.. in this time, at my age, it is foolish to expect me to act like a teenager and act
rashly ion a dare like the Kid Charlemagne story... I was actually going to do it 4
years ago because it would have worked out, but once again, my keepers made sure
that my finances were destroyed...
So people think I'm joking around about leaving at all.. just the fool
doing it again.. while I watch others taking my siggestions, but still approving of the
harm... getting recognition for and image enhancement by implementing their version of my
work which is rarely accurate or actually on point, or effective, not talking aout
what you provide.. or dealing with the root issues... which are not the headlines at
all... and I measure what I say by your standards of ministry of the Word regarding
the example of Christ and such...
Anyway.. I think I proved today that I am taking on the world in
appropriate ways, and it's sort of working but it won't be in time... but I'm simply no
longer willing tosuffer this wa for the sake of others' edification, because that is a
perversion of the word and a mockery odf GOd.
God is a jealous God not in terms of desire, but in the knowledge of the
difference He can personally make and knowin ghe is not welcomed.
So I guess I've been manipulated once again into doing things I do not
wish to do and actually reject... but of course, since I'll be passing through, I'll stop
by just to see the joke fully played out on me once agian, and if someone dares suggest
that I passed the faith test, given who I am and the faith that has always sustained me
spiritually and is the reason for my sanity, I will be so resentful that I will
simply get in my car and keep going, turning my back on everything I always believedin in
America,knowing that those things do not exist and that are no longer actually desired or
lived in the bieings of those who should know better.
If those who read my words and think they know what i am like, they are
wrong. If they believe they know what I am communicating without the benefit, to me and
them, of interation with them they're wrong, but I refuse to be the brunt of jokes and
usery of my gifts as if I amn not ssomeone with feeling sand needs and desired that should
be granted the dignoty required of all etoward one another even in thsi society, then I
must conclude objectively that there is no one who actually hears in this nation.
You could say I am feeling sorry for myself, I am not. It is an objective
conclusion, using the judgment I am required to apply, adn do so ot with pleasure, but
with acceptance of my responsibility. And I am not an icon to those who are chosen to
atttend the supper and consumate the marriage... and I like blue.
When I first began my activism,. I receive a letter from someone that I
believed was irrelevant to the work I was doing and to my situation, as I was not aware of
my full being and was taken in by the "vision" of the world foisted upon us all
by deceivers... I recieved a letter about that contained a flow chart of the way
purportely used by Scientolgy to do what I'll call formulaic and systematic psyops that
most assuredly is the same model as CIA and FBI CoIntelPro-like training manuals
provide... and it's interestng that in an interaction with a Scientologist once.. and I
won't say they properly represent Scientology.. but they mocked me..
They actually aggressively persued a conversation with me to tell me that
what made them better than WEA people was the idea of always being complete vs constantly
seeking completion.. and the interesting part is that I agreed with what they told me, but
they did it in such a mocking manner that I didn't want to even learn about Scientology...
and I refused to get into the discussion of WEA about what enemies the two organizations
had with each other because my participation had nothing to do with judgnmentalism or
their legal or personal issues.. and yet, it seemed as if I was given no choice. Much like
being steroetyped by religion or affiliations... and treated as if I was of a particular
mindset when I alwyas had independent thought, just like disagreeing with my father about
the essence of the being of the people of Russia, who I know, like Muslims and others,
have the same fundamental needs and desires as all people and beings and creatures, and
life of all kinds. Thus it was about fulfilling the needs of those people and the
community with them, as a "generic" whole.. that was when I was 7 or 8...
And everything, including the plauibly deniable introduction I had to your
work, fits the psyop model consistently used to harm me... and set up to purposefully lure
me with women to a place thousands of miles away from my "stronghold" to cause
me to believe in people and their righteous intent which is the sourc of my being labeled
a fool. Now that I know Ameirca considers it to be their right to ause me in every way
they can imagine, I don' tunderstand how anyone could possibly expect me to empower anyone
in those circumstances.
I have to assume you know what I am saying. And I am of the belief at the
moment that I will be further psyopped to diminish and oppress me into taking what is
given to me in a time of desperation, and I simply will not do it. If this nation is
desirous of my work and the mesages delivered through me by the true God of all, not by my
"Godliness" or Godhead assignation as His Son in this world, then I
deserve to be granted the minimalism I request, or must again conclude that I hae simply
been "compassed about", not "compassed, once again to enrich humanistic
goals.. and I simply refuse to do that, nor waste my time speaking to those who choose to
hear only what they choose to believ e that flatters. I am not an apostate or a martyr,
and if people want a martyr.. been there, done that, won't do it anymore.
That is judgmnet, not coercion. And it is neither subject to the approval
of others nor ignored by God the Father. Ity is required of me, no matter how unpleasant
it may seem, and is relied upon because of the nature of the essence of the love I bring
and the compassion and opportunity I provide to anyone who requests it or will receivei
it... whcich is the thing that is most taken advantage of, and the source of the
only true pain I've had in this world. And it seems I am punished for possessing and
offering and giving such love.
I hate to use the word deserve in this context, but I don't understand how
people can believe they deserve what I am so willing to provide, per their request, not my
requirement of them, simply as an equal citizen... let alone one who is expected to
deliver the Word and Truth of God as more than they know or as if I may have something
more to provide, while the golden rule and the commandments and even humanistics would
inform them sufficiently that anyone who would treat or expect of anyone else in this way
is simply wrong, let alone sin or crime against humanity in the laws of man.
The only thing it leaves me with is that I should leave. Admittedly, my
exposure to faiths, on tv or in hometowns is limited, but I am not responsible for that
either. And I really would rather live somewhere alone, than continue to be expected to be
a good sport and prove to the world, like an example, that such treatment should be
tolerated let alone that the human spirit and being is supposed to rise above, as if I am
made of steel, instead of being made in His image like everyone else with the same needs
and desires and rights to liberty and love, that have been denied me my whole life.
And the fact that in your case, things have been done to me that at least
appear to be a part of your doing for whatever purposes to cause me to feel and break me
down, which I will not allow, instead of being capable of persevering in the face of Satan
himslef... void of any love or compassion from anyone to sustain me.. I can do it, I know
I can, but there is no satisfaction for me, seeing others impplemnt the work
provided through me in the face of the mockery and pain I am expected to endure, that no
one was intended to do by God's will.
And what hurts most nside is knowing there are so many who are suffering
more than me,and I am capable of bringing that to an end, yet all I see is people taking
and hoarding and harming one another to "get wht they can" without regard to the
harm they cause other beings. And I don't want to see it anymore, knowing my time to serve
and cause the Kingdom that I could deliver, knowing that in my heart, is being denied,
even by those who call themselves the faithful. And that is not directed at you.
And when I spoke of whoredom, I was speaking of the church.. not even the
Catholic church,but the church of America, each nation,and the church of the world and the
I didn't know anything about you. I took you at your word and in yours
speaking of your commitment to Him and Jesus, because nothinge else really matters to
me... because it is actually all that's ever mattered to me, even when I didn't know
that's what I was doing as an equal citizen. The psyop sguys got me to look stuff up.
After all of that... and that too seeems like a psyop to make it seem as though I am
And then tonight, right after your message... I get ads about drug adition
and pornography addiction... and I am so offended for myself and others, that I really am
beside myself to want to give to anyone of such ignorance and judgmentalism relating to my
life and being.. a typical outcome of the the desired results of the psyops against me to
stop me from the completion of my work... And you should see some of the other
sexually oriented stuff they've put on after you that I'm only hoping were piggybacks to
anger and dusgust me. And diminsih you.
And of course, L is playing the crazy card again to force me out.. I can't
say I blame her... for a number of reasons I won't go into except to say that our
funadmental beliefs in God and Jesus are not at all compatible after all in any way, and
the only way it is presented to me that their interest is real is to appease me, as it has
been for nearly 12 years.. I find out now... with contradictory explanations and tricks to
agitate me an cause me to flee. The perfect combo once again for the dialectic to make me
hmeless, particularly at this critical time in history, that I was supposed to disrupt,
and could, with a mustard seed of assistance. All the tools I was supoosed to be provided
have been sold and turned against me. Which again leaves me to wait for the desolation to
occur, leaving me to provide for the world as if some hero I have no desire to be.
Equality, liberty, justice, love. It seems people only want it
anymore to prove they can steal it and get way with it to the detriment of others as if
scoring each hurt against another as a notch on a gun in a contest to do the most harm.
And I reject it. And I refuse to continue to provide notches.
So I have chosen you and appealed to the commitment and promise you say
you made, and I believe you made because of your speaking, without any knowledg of you
except through that speaking, liek the Angel Jesus sent to deliver the message and prepare
the way... and because of that, for whatever the truth of the reasons may be.... the
precious time to take action, with the ability to make a difference, is nearly gone. The
psyop hads worked. And it appears tha deception upon deception upon deception has happened
again with the speaking of God's word and the lure of affection through psychotronics,
just like before, to a man deprived of even conversation for years, knowing that all
I wanted was to share and challenge and enjoy the work of establishing the Kingdom of God
with others who have faith in His promise, and the love of doing His work and the pelasure
He gifts the faithful with in the course of that work. Love. one human to another, not
romantic, but of grace and a shared understanding, knowledge and in and of Jesus'
spirit... and even that I am denied.
Still, I am required to have faith in people who do not truly have faith
in God, or I would not be writing this to you now.
If there is one thing I know about business and the work of God, it is, as
a matter of fact, somehing I learned at WEA, an that is when integrity is does not exist
in the operations and communications of those chosxen to deliver and particpate in the
work of God, the business will fail - for those who claim integrity and do not actually
deliver it. As well as knowing that those who are chosen who do not operate insideof that
integrity will be diminished unto themselves for the knowlede of their own failures in
being, causing self-defeat.
I will win in the wrok of God one way or another and His behalf and to
honor the example of Jesus, Isimpy pray to minimize he damage that I fear will be done,
beor I am freed bythe dstruction of my containment, instead of the integrity of liberty
for all and the fiathfulnees of operatingin in His work and intent and Golden Rule.
It's harder for me to walk away from people I care about, even as friends,
than anyone could imagine, because I've been forced to walk away so may times in my life
under circumstances I never understood until recently.
And I really don't know what else to say, except ot say I think you're
brilliant, we could have been good friends and great partners in His work. I'll
remember you that way. I like to remember people for the best that they are.
Like everyone else who must make choices, so must I, my hands are
always outstretched, but supper has been served, and there is no one to share it with. And
so I am sad, but understand, though I still am shocked, and in denial of this observation,
to preserve the love in my heart for all, for Him and for the ways of Jesus in which I
have tried to live my life, regardless of the judgments of me by people who aggressively
pursued my downfall or who have been misled, who I still love, but must proclaim that I do
not know.. in His name and spirit, per His instruction.. as I would desire as the
sustenance of my being in community.
And yet I will continue my work elsewhere, where people desire to hear,
and commune and live in His Kingdom as it is being creaed and re-created as He intended.
He is my only master, who I serve willingly with all my heart and soul, and I will not
betray HIm, because I love Him, and I love what He wants to provide us all, and know that
I will on His behalf, somehow, some way... and I was not intended to do it alone, thought
that is the path it seems I am force to accept.
One day we'll meet and know each other in His love. I lookfforward to
that, though I would have wanted you to be my right hand as I am His right hand.
God bless you. I mean that.
Faith - Can't Find My Way Home