This is the 64 million dollar question.
I know I'm caught in the middle of a dialectic. In a moment, I will explain what I
think the dialectics are. But, even I wonder why now, after all this started, after all
this time, I am having a sudden spurt of writing this.
Note the dates these things were written. And, yet, everything I am writing is what
I've been mulling over for years, wondering what to do.
The problem wasn't my lack of desire, motivation or information. The problem was the
debilitating electronic attacks that left me unable to think clearly. I'm certain they are
microwave and laser attacks. I even know what direction(s) they're coming from.
Ray Kurzweil wrote a book I'll find around here later that described the future that
included computer to brain interfaces for the entire human race. He described how there
would be people who would be computer manipulated into writing spiritual materials AS IF
they were channelling a spirit.
This would be the way the government would control the masses. By creating and
promoting a leaders, and then controlling them to say what the government wanted them to
say.
I have no doubt that is part of what is going on now. Because all of a sudden, I have
the will and the energy to write all this, but just a few days ago, I was suffering the
chronic fatigue and fuzzy mind that made me unable to write succinctly. I'm being zapped
right now, which is part of how I know that I'm being caused to write this now.
Dialectic: what I just wrote could, on the surface, be used to prove my mental illness.
However, in fact, when the facts are known, there are hundreds and thousands of people
suffering the same effects in the same ways.
Like the woman I know who began beiing attacked after finding out she knew about the
Atlanta Olympic Park bombings, told the FBI and they blew her off... she decided she had
done what she could do about reporting it and her hands were clean... then the
bombing happened. She tried to report what she knew. And the targeting began, presumably
to shut her up because the FBI fumbled the ball or allowed it to happen.
The Story goes that she filed for disability because the attacks were so severe - they
actually burn her face with lasers - she said she went to the hearing, and her attorney
was called into a back room, he came out 5 minutes later, the hearing was over, and she
was awarded disability.
She said they ruled that she was normal in every way, except for her delusion that the
government was out to get her. On that basis, she was granted disability.
Part of another dialectic here is that I wonder if I should do the same thing, and at
least get subsistence pay while the government is destroying my life. The problem
is, I don't want to lie. AND, I figure the dialectic guys would love for me to claim that,
which would create a public record of mental illness to discredit me, AND, when all this
is proven in public soon, they'd then be able to prosecute me for lying about being
mentally ill to collect federal benefits... even though the government says the proof you
have doesn't exist.
I know all this sounds paranoid. But this is exactly what PsyOps are intended to
accomplish. To get you wondering what you're being set up for if you dare do anything to
defend yourself or help yourself. And, thus, to get you to do nothing for fear of
additional suffering or incarceration.
So, Why Now? And, Why Me?
First of all, I have over 6 gb of materials and videos and stuff to prove my case.
There's so much, that I have trouble thinking about how it could be presented. So much,
that I can't imagine ever telling anyone all of it.
Every person who is targeted says to themselves - why me? What makes me so important?
And when you finally come to the realization that there is no logical reason for
your targeting, you then question your own sanity because it's bad enough you can't figure
out why, the next bigger question has to do with finding it unbelievable yourself that
anyone would do such horrendous things.
Most people being targeted appear to have been randomly selected for testing of these
weapons for Reasons of National Security and are not activists or trouble makers of any
kind.
One policeman I tried to talk to one day said "I don't believe you. I don't
believe that people would do things like that to other people". Other than
that, this was a very nice man, and I was certain he was looking for a way to believe me
and help. Absolutely certain. And all I was doing was trying to see if he knew anything
about directed energy weapons. Then he became the dominant in the questioning, and before
it was over, I feared that I was being threatened with involuntary commitment. Even though
I had documentation and evidence that he was not interested in seeing.
On the Need for New Criteria of Diagnosis of Psychosis
in the Light of Mind Invasive Technology [excerpt] |
Dr.
Carole Smith
Journal of Psycho-Social Studies 2003
For someone who felt his mind was going to
pieces, to be put into the stressful situation of the psychiatric examination, even when
the psychiatrist acquitted himself with kindness, the situation of the assessment
procedure itself, can be ‘an effective way to drive someone crazy, or more
crazy.’ (Laing, 1985, p 17).
But if the accounting of bizarre experiences
more or less guaranteed you a new label or a trip to the psychiatric ward, there is even
more reason for a new group of people to be outraged about how their symptoms are being
diagnosed.
A doubly cruel sentence is being imposed on
people who are the victims of the most appalling abuse by scientific-military experiments,
and a totally uncomprehending society is indifferent to their evidence.
For
the development of a new class of weaponry now has the capability of entering the brain
and mind and body of another person by technological means.
"We
have failed to comprehend that the result of the technology that originated in the years
of the arms race between the Soviet Union and the West, has resulted in using satellite
technology not only for surveillance and communication systems but also to lock on to
human beings, manipulating brain frequencies by directing laser beams, neural-particle
beams, electro-magnetic radiation, sonar waves, radiofrequency radiation (RFR), soliton
waves, torsion fields and by use of these or other energy fields which form the areas of
study for astro-physics.
Since
the operations are characterised by secrecy, it seems inevitable that the methods that we
do know about, that is, the exploitation of the ionosphere, our natural shield, are
already outdated as we begin to grasp the implications of their use.
"
Anyway.. I've experienced what Kurzweil predicted, and went along with it because I
wanted to see where it lead, and I know that the electronic attacks would not have
lessened if it was not to serve the Psyops guys' purposes.
That said:
The possible dialectics at play for me (and remember, you don't know 5% of what I know
and can document) - none of which I want to be used for:
* I have damning criminal evidence against some of the largest news conglomerates in
the world
* I have information regarding bogus contracts with FEMA and the DOD
* I have information related to the Exxon Valdez disaster
* I have damning criminal information and evidence against 2 of the best known
Democratic political consultants connected to the 2008 campaigns
* I am walking proof of the government's fascist willingness to protect the media
companies who spread their lies
* I am walking proof of the government's mind control programs. They tell me I'm going
to be made an example of. That means, they'll either try to make a case like they can read
my mind or something and that I am a bad person, or they'll get me to write all this in
order to propagandize this into a slam against some politician. All in all, it's either an
expose of the technology for the good of human beings, OR it's a manipulation to be able
to announce to the world that they have the ability to torture anyone, anytime by
electronic means, thus threatening any person or nation who would oppose the New World
Order. I think it's the latter. We'll see.
THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF THOUGHT CRIMES. Not words you speak, thoughts you think.
Minority Report. The "AGENTS" in the Matrix. Mind reading.
The DOD has announced robotic bugs and implanted bugs that allow them to see and hear
throught the senses of the implanted subject. They proved in 1985 that they could see through the eyes of a cat hooked up to a computer. Do you really believe they can't do the same thing with people? (links are to photos of
the images)
* I wrote a letter to a newsman who was repeating another Bush "Blame it on
everyone else" remark so I write him an email saying that a symptom of psychosis is
that a psychotic blames everyone else for what happens. It was interesting, given that in
all my prior writing I always said that whatever happened to me in life, I just adopted
the idea that there was a time to every purpose, learned the lessons and moved on.
A few days later, I called an old high school teacher I've remained friends with over
the years. He relayed some info that suggests that he is aware of what may be: that I was
in the original CoIntelPro program... which would explain a great number of things -
bizarre things I never understood. But the implication, if that were true, is that I would
be blaming someone else for a whole bunch of bad things that have happened in the past...
therefore, a psychotic. Except, of course, if my upcoming FOIA requests reveal something
(I doubt they will... why would the government give me actionable evidence against
themselves?)
* And, the woman I am with says she can't bear the idea that we are constantly being
watched, particularly with infra-red while having sex. And that it's hard for her to know
that she can't tell me a seceret or anything intimate without knowing that it's being
heard by people who have no business knowing or listening or watching in the first place.
After getting the info from my school teacher, she and I began comparing notes. Her
husband was a conscientious objector during the Viet Nam War. We're beginning to
believe we were both CoIntelPro-ed all this time. I hope we're wrong. I would much rather
believe that God was giving me challenges in order to cause me to become a better person.
Before, I thought Jerry Falwell's "Clinton Chronicles" was a political slam.
I don't anymore.
